10 July 2013

Another day....

“He awoke each morning with the desire to do right, to be a good and meaningful person, to be, as simple as it sounded and as impossible as it actually was, happy. And during the course of each day his heart would descend from his chest into his stomach. By early afternoon he was overcome by the feeling that nothing was right, or nothing was right for him, and by the desire to be alone. By evening he was fulfilled: alone in the magnitude of his grief, alone in his aimless guilt, alone even in his loneliness. I am not sad, he would repeat to himself over and over, I am not sad. As if he might one day convince himself. Or fool himself. Or convince others--the only thing worse than being sad is for others to know that you are sad. I am not sad. I am not sad. Because his life had unlimited potential for happiness, insofar as it was an empty white room. He would fall asleep with his heart at the foot of his bed, like some domesticated animal that was no part of him at all. And each morning he would wake with it again in the cupboard of his rib cage, having become a little heavier, a little weaker, but still pumping. And by the midafternoon he was again overcome with the desire to be somewhere else, someone else, someone else somewhere else. I am not sad.
Jonathan Safran Foer, Everything is Illuminated

19 May 2013

Going thru the motions...

I'm here..present and accounted for.

Wishing I could read.

Wishing I could craft.

Wishing...

13 May 2013

Monday...

...again.

29 April 2012

:(

Just when I think I'm better, the darkness comes back over me. I don't know.

19 December 2011

SAD

A friend of mine summed this up pretty well...


Seasonal Depression feels like you are dead inside, and you don't really care that you are a mere shell of a person.

You don't really want to run out in front of a truck, but then again, if that truck came barreling towards you, you wouldn't move out of the way.

It comes and goes.

That pretty much tells it like it is folks!

14 July 2011

my wish...

“This is my wish for you: Comfort on difficult days, smiles when sadness intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter to kiss your lips, sunsets to warm your heart, hugs when spirits sag, beauty for your eyes to see, friendships to brighten your being, faith so that you can believe, confidence for when you doubt, courage to know yourself, patience to accept the truth, Love to complete your life.”

31 May 2011

May

Gone.